the last entry i posted simply said "<3 I LOVE MY FRIENDS!<3" ironic that 3 days later a guy i knew, not well, but still a friend, passed away.. and now another friend has passed away just a lil over a month later.
r.i.p. zach sanchez & bronson miller.

Big B, you were like a big bro to me, you always watched over me when you were around.. made me laugh more than any other of jasons friends ever did. you were awesome. i'll never forget you. i just regret that we didnt hang out more. we hadn't hung out since january when bro was home. though i did see you pass the streets a few times. you always waved & smiled. thanks for all the smiles you brought to my face. i'll never forget the memories of you i have. love ya big b!

sooo things are WONDERFULL!!
i couldn't be happier! lol
well i could.. but lets put it this way..
this is the happiest i have been in a long time!
i think im finaly coming out of a very dark era in my life.
i mean.. i have come in and out of that era for a long time..
but this seems so much better..t he best that it has been.
and i think im going to be better for good.
that im finaly happy.. im becoming happier with myself.
and i think im learning not to push people away.
which is what i usualy do.
now i just have to regain or.. show some people a few things.
like im back... im good... no more depression..
anyways i just felt like writing!
but yeah no one really reads this thing..
but okay. im done for now i'll write again one day!
much love to you .. whoever you are that might be reading this!
--Jeanie--